I need you, Ava.
I am desperate. For you. For a touch. For a kiss. For the scrape of your hand down my stomach. For the slide of your lips across my hipbone. The sweep of your thigh against mine in the dulcet, drowning darkness. For the warm huff of your breath on my skin and the wet suck of your mouth around me and the building pressure of need reaching release…I am mad with need.
Wild with it.
I cannot have you. I have lost you, as I have lost myself.
And so I go in search. Of myself, and thus the man who might return to you, and take you in his arms.
I loathe each of the thousands of miles between us, but I cannot wish them away, for I hope at the end of my journey I shall find you. Or rather, find myself, and thus…you. Myself, and thus us.
I am taking the long way home, Ava.
I’m losing my mind, and I don’t know how to stop it. I shouldn’t be writing to you, but I am. I’m friendless, loveless, and lifeless. You’re out there somewhere, and still you’re all I really have. I hate my reliance and dependence on you, emotionally and otherwise, and that reliance is something I’m coming to recognize. I hate that I can’t hate you as much as I want to. I hate that I still love you so much.
I hate that there’s no clear solution to our conundrum. Even if we could forgive each other, what then?
I hate you, Christian. I really do.
But most of all, I don’t.
Complicatedly (still) yours,
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The Long Way Home blew me away. Seriously, I read it days ago and I still can not get it out of my head. Talk about a book hangover!
Christian and Ava’s story is complicated and utterly heartbreaking. I actually felt the sadness oozing into me from the words on the pages. If you read my reviews, you know that this is my favorite kind of book – a book that makes me feel. I love to live through the characters; to visualize myself going through their experiences with them. Jasinda Wilder did an amazing job immersing the reader into the plot. Her descriptions were phenomenal – I felt as if I was right in the exact place she was writing about.Many times I had to step away because I got too caught up in the story.
I have to say this – there is a plot twist and it completely threw me. I was stunned, sitting with my kindle on my lap, mouth hanging open in shock. It was fantastic!!!! I am looking forward to the next part of the story to see where the journey leads next!
New York Times, USA Today, Wall Street Journal, and internationally bestselling author Jasinda Wilder is a Michigan native with a penchant for titillating tales about sexy men and strong women. Her bestselling titles include Alpha, Stripped, Wounded, and the #1 Amazon.com and international bestseller Falling into You. You can find her on her farm in northern Michigan with her husband, author Jack Wilder, her six children, and a menagerie of animals.