Anyone can say they’re completely fulfilled with life. They can say all the right words and even behave as if not a darn thing is wrong even when their insides are hollowed out. And eventually, they’ll search, dig, pry and perhaps bargain for a chance at satisfaction. If I can’t be satisfied, then I guess I’ll settle for what I can get.
Jezebel Jones and Jason Marks have been the rock in each other’s lives for years. No one knows Jezebel as well as Jason, and vice versa. As Jezebel comes to terms with being alone, she decides to settle for her ever-faithful friend. Although she’s never loved him romantically, Jezebel would like to believe that she could. Will their friendship withstand the changes?
And when Jezebel least expects to be swept away, she meets Aidan Broder. He stimulates her mind, body and soul. Even as Jezebel gets closer to him, she’s still afraid to dive in completely and finds herself in the middle of two men. In the end, Jezebel will have to make a choice between a man that has always loved her and a man that wants to love her.
“I’m not a heartbreaker,” Jezebel responded. The pain had become too much to hide or hold back, especially after hearing the heaviness of his words. She clutched her throat, trying in earnest to stop the cries.
“You’re already breaking my heart. Each second I see you torn over your friendship with another man.” Aidan shifted from one leg to the other. His hand slipped into his pockets. He was vulnerable, Jezebel could see it in the way his head kept adjusting away from her.
“I’m sorry, Aidan . . .” she mouthed, her words drowning out in the midst of 1:30 a.m. traffic and distant sounds of the performance. “Can we leave?”
Jezebel wrapped her fingers around his, taking charge for once, feeling the need to let him know she cared. She had forgotten how to care a long time ago. She texted her friends from the car, afraid of Aidan disappearing if she went inside. They drove in silence while she planned for the night ahead. Aidan pulled into her driveway and got out to open her door. She noted that the car was still running.
“You’re not coming in?” she asked when he took her hand.
Jezebel touched the sides of his face, then the nape of his neck. She attempted to kiss him, but he remained distant.
“Aidan,” she breathed into his face.
“You’re too complicated for me, Jezebel.”
“I thought you liked that about me,” she joked. Her nerves tingled; she felt scared, nervous. “Let’s go inside.”
“I’m heading home,” Aidan mumbled.
“Why?” Jezebel recognized her inconsistency, even how unfair she was being toward Aidan’s feelings. And still it was difficult to just allow him to leave. “Please, stay?” Tears poured down her face, and she pressed into his chest. He didn’t initially take her into his arms. She saw how hard he was fighting his emotions.
Janice Ross was born in Guyana, South America and migrated to the USA in 1980. Although her citizenship certificate now reads the United States of America, she considers herself a citizen of the world. Sure she has not physically been around the world and back, but she’s travelled in her mind and dreams.
Janice is an author. She enjoys writing about social issues and personal experiences. Janice’s debut release was entitled Damaged Girls. She uses the three books in that series to detail the effects of different forms of abuse, discussing issues that are known to be taboo. Her next release, Jumping Ship, is a dedication to her country of birth and an introductory novella to the Island Hopping Series. It is a colorful and emotional experience of life, love and family. As of present, she is also a contributor to a short story collection – Just Between Us, Inspiring Stories by Women. And lastly, Loving Nate, a novella about the realities of losing one’s self to love.
Janice enjoys reading. And is drawn to stories with distinct characters that she can love or hate, characters she can form alliances with or characters that she can swear off and despise. She is also weak for a good cultural tale, preferably in the form of historical fiction. Janice loves to be taken off guard by clever language and settings.